How it all began...

I set out not necessarily to like NICU, I wanted a quiet corner of nights where my only responsibility was feed and grow babies. The 8 hr shifts worked better for me as a mom and I wanted to take an easy path.

I learned very quickly there is nothing easy about the NICU. While I only work at a Level II there is still plenty of delicate babies requiring exquisite care. The more I learn about these babies and their families the more my heart is called to make this my home for now. 

I love that my job is taking care of these tiny infants, and not so tiny, not replacing their mothers, but being there while they cannot. In a perfect world mother's would never be separated from their newborns but as we all know this world is only alive in that lingering spot between sleep and sunrise. 

I work nights, not to avoid parents but because it works for my family and I find I can focus on my work better without the chaos that ofter accompanies days. I had considered evenings at one point but have been warned multiple time to avoid the shift of "nurses who eat their young" I just wish in some way I could communicate to these nurses that while my education was clearly different than theirs that the heart of nursing beats in all of us,

I am excited to see where this journey takes me. I hope to learn lots and I am already realizing that the world of NICU has crept into a special place in my heart. Despite the difficulty of learning new things I am excited to care for these wee ones who have been entrusted into my care. 

So for now I set, I learned, I loved, I work, I am...that about says it all for now.